One of the worst forms of anxiety to have in society is Performance. Unfortunately for me, I am blessed to have it.

Performance Anxiety (usually referred to stage fright) is an intense fear that occurs when a person is expected to perform well or is peered upon by others. It’s triggered by public speaking, competitions, performances, and interviews. It can effect a person mentally, emotionally, and physically.

As this is my personal experience, my stories may vary to how hard it hits others!

Now, as of recently, it has hit a bit more than expected, so I wanted to share its effects and how I somewhat cope!

In one of my classes, we tend to have daily call-outs about assignments. To be real honest, it isn’t even that bad! We get called on to say our answer and move on. But, for some reason, my body gets set into panic mode and my heart rate increases far more than it should. Averting eyes, drinking water to prevent being called on, and shrinking to look invisible. Having this class for almost a full year should’ve gotten be prepared and even ready to answer! Yet I feel just as worried as I did at the first chance to be picked.

It really isn’t something I can control despite being told ways to better from it. Answers like “make yourself believe you’re correct” doesn’t make sense. I am right, I’m sure of it, but still the concept of being chosen makes my blood run cold… If anything, if my overconfidence fumbles, it’ll deteriorate more than it already has! At this point, college class intervention will have to be done against my will…

From messing up my words at an extreme amount, to holding back tears, it’s a rollercoaster that needs to leave IMMEDIATELY.